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My parents broke their marriage when I was 14 years old......     I am Bachama from Adamawa state and it is customary to return the bride price paid over ones head in the case of a divorce and my mom did so before she left my father.     My father was largely responsible for their divorce.... I was old enough to know some of their issues and met quite a few of my dad's girlfriends.    I remember the day I found out, It was a cruel day in April of 1995,we had supposedly gone ahead of my mom to my dad's place in Iwopin for 2nd term holidays because "my mom had a meeting to attend" before joining us..... A week went by, 2 weeks and then a whole month and everytime we reminded our dad we wanted to spend some of our holiday with my mom, he had a way of shoving our request aside. One day to resumption, we drove in to Maryland Lagos, where we lived at about 8pm through a heavy storm...... Got home, opened the door with his key which was strange, I remember thinkin...

I was a very expressive child growing up, then life happened and I became so unsure of who I was and lost myself for so long after that.......     It took me years of personal development to finally find me again and this time, never will I ever again give anyone that kind of power over me...     Now I am self aware and I have become so vain enough to look myself in the mirror and tell myself all the things I would like to hear about myself long enough to believe them.        Believe them enough to be better, stronger, wiser and eager to show you how you too can.    I have been able to do CAN, long enough that there's no CANNOT and if you sat with me long ENOUGH, soon you'd believe in yourself too.    Believe is the key to becoming. Today choose to become your Best.      Because being YOU is the most important key to finding the quiet within your SOUL.    Leave your thoughts, I would love to read t...

I have died a thousand times in my head, each time, I never worry about how my kids would take it, I often just wonder if my sisters would be okay... I have no doubt my kids would be well catered for ...... My worry always in my head is, if I would have fulfilled my assignment from God? ..... Would I die empty? Would there be a young girl I failed to help reach her full potential? Would I make it to heaven? Is there a heaven? What would my life look like if it had been different? Many unanswered questions race through my mind.... No answers yet though..... Last 2 weeks I had the scare of my life, what if my plan A died? , She had fallen ill and that made me think about my kids should I die..... ........ I can't put words to how I felt in those long couple of days before her temperature returned from cold to warm. But it made my walk with God better...... I have mentioned often how I lost faith...... And how I have stopped attending church..... But I found God again, I found my fait...